9 March 2020/14 Rajab 1441 - GREAT GREEN DAY
Today was a good day:
1) I was mostly conscious of where i put my energy, and how I should go through with today. Ofcourse not everything was ticked off from my to-do list, but I managed to lessen the load.
2) I forgave Mr hubby for what happened in the car the other night.
The argument was petty, but the effect was hurtful. It was hurtful, because it turned out, I could accept him, I could understand him - both his strengths and his limitations, as he progresses in his own journey of self-growth; but its not as easy for him to do so for me.
It was hurtful, but today I let myself be free from that hurt. My journey of self-progression is my own. Ofcourse I would have thrived better if he is to trust me fully, but that takes both our efforts in strengthening our trust for each other. So I take it as a battle that has yet to be won.
And its Hefni. I forgave him, because I cant do better than him. Because there is no one better to be my partner in raising our kids than him. He is, without a doubt, a thriver. Today's version of him is often always better than yesterday's, and thats the game changer for me. You can be such a gentleman, or the most patient person here, but if you are not consciously aware to upgrade yourself gradually, then you will only lose yourself.
The argument must have hurt him too. But he brought the kids out to play the next day, and brought me out for a fun night together. And we are back to our old selves again, joking and teasing each other.
What more can I ask for on a great green day like today. ❤
- Sam🎀
1) I was mostly conscious of where i put my energy, and how I should go through with today. Ofcourse not everything was ticked off from my to-do list, but I managed to lessen the load.
2) I forgave Mr hubby for what happened in the car the other night.
The argument was petty, but the effect was hurtful. It was hurtful, because it turned out, I could accept him, I could understand him - both his strengths and his limitations, as he progresses in his own journey of self-growth; but its not as easy for him to do so for me.
It was hurtful, but today I let myself be free from that hurt. My journey of self-progression is my own. Ofcourse I would have thrived better if he is to trust me fully, but that takes both our efforts in strengthening our trust for each other. So I take it as a battle that has yet to be won.
And its Hefni. I forgave him, because I cant do better than him. Because there is no one better to be my partner in raising our kids than him. He is, without a doubt, a thriver. Today's version of him is often always better than yesterday's, and thats the game changer for me. You can be such a gentleman, or the most patient person here, but if you are not consciously aware to upgrade yourself gradually, then you will only lose yourself.
The argument must have hurt him too. But he brought the kids out to play the next day, and brought me out for a fun night together. And we are back to our old selves again, joking and teasing each other.
What more can I ask for on a great green day like today. ❤
- Sam🎀
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