WHO USES BLOGSPOT ANYMORE??

 I do!

Hahah im nearing my BIG 4 0 and only now Ive come to really understand the importance of journaling and pening down random lessons that Allah wants to help me learn. And these are valuable lessons to record and revisit for the importance of growth and development. If Im serious about being better on a daily, Ive got to be more proactive on writing and journaling. Lets gooo

So maybe I may need to revise the platform I record these on, but for now blogspot is so simple and easy!

WHY NOT BLOGSPOT?!😂

IM BRING BLOGSPOT BACK TO LIFE! 🥳

DAY #8 OF MY JOURNALING JOURNEY (TIME-SENSITIVE VS EMBRACING EACH MOMENT)

 Im not one to like to rush into things. When Im in a certain moment where Id like to embrace and learn, I’d find myself taking my time to evaluate every corner, every angle and every scenarios. I know the reason I do that is because I enjoy it - I enjoy the journey or the ride and not so much the destination. 

And on the other hand, my job requires me to be quick and fast-thinking. It requires me to have to be one to embrace urgency; and I get that. Because some things are, in fact, time sensitive. And to remain aware of how time and place truly affects the impact of our cause or message. 

Does me wanting to spend more time with people, make me a low value agent? Should I look at things the way some other agents look at our industry - with focus on financial stability to those who are already looking for it? Cant I get to know people first, and enjoy learning about them first?

Its a very thin line I see, between learning about our community, and taking too much time to address my purpose in creating that relationship. 

So the question remains - what am I doing? 

My fear is in insulting and disrespecting the people I meet, if my purpose in building that relationship is not clear from the start. And thats the last thing I want to do, to make anyone feel belittled by my words or actions.

Thats in part of why I take my time, and also why id like to establish that they really want to hear about it before I proceed to share. And thats key.

DAY #7 OF JOURNALING JOURNEY (STAGNATION, OR PROGRESS?)

I decided 2 months ago to revisit this blog and continue to pen down details of my day, because of this very reason - to realign my focus that progress is not determined by results or the destination, but progress is in the daily decisions I make to learn, to grow, to strive out of my comfort zone.

So today may seem like there’s no progress. I reached out to 5 people to connect deeper, but most were busy dealing with whatever they were dealing with. The expectations I had, were not met today. But relationships can’t be rushed. Trust has to be built. And patience, has its beautiful rewards. I was virtually checking in and showing I was here for them, and I believe the message was clear. Sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit kan.

CCP is done. Laundry is done. So that’s a big relief. 

Tomorrow is treadmill in the morning, then fetching cookies to bring to Umaira’s. Conquering Canberra tomorrow lets goo.

December is halfway gone, 16 more days to 2026. An authentic 2026 yessssaaaaaa.

DAY #6 OF JOURNALING JOURNEY (OF SELF-CARE AND RECUPERATION)

 Had the blessings of spending family time in Japan with Rozi Aisyah family for a good 10 days. 

It’s always enjoyable to be in Japan. The streets, the train rides, the food, the clean toilets and easy accessibility of prayer areas made Japan a nice place to visit. And although we had to walk miles, kids didn’t complain as they too enjoyed their stay there.

And now I’m back, been home since yesterday. And now after 10 days of recuperating, I’m finding myself fumbling with the start button on work, on exercising, on kids’ revision and ngaji, basically on my responsibilities.

What happened today was mostly doing the CCP yearly course at work, after sending the kids to mum’s. Kept in touch with a few people that have yet to get back to me, that’s fine. What mattered was I did my part. So there.

Did some counselling sessions with colleagues and Mr Mentor. Got myself some news updates, which truth be told, matter least to anybody really. Most news, I find, are just noise. Somebody A is leaving the workplace, somebody B is not progressing in her career and blaming other people on it, somebody C is doing work of a higher post to get ahead and asking to get a cut from her Mentor’s pay, some type of immature shit like that. It’s all just noise. But I assure you, these noise will travel and they will be the ones either hyping people up on it, or dragging people’s mood down. And I’m in the midst of it - zen-ing their vibes as much as I can. 

It does feel heavy at times, and lonely too, as someone who sees things from an eagle’s eyes, but I have to keep in mind introspectively and through each individual’s angle it becomes a totally different view. It does feel heavy thinking about what’s to come, but I leave it you Ya Sayyidinan Nabi. Selawat and salam upon You, Oh Most Beloved One. 

So yeah, today is alright. Could it have been better, yes. It would have been time-effective if I focused more on my work than yapping too much. And brainstorming a strategy before contacting would have made the prospecting better, so ok. Let’s do that.

Ciao. Good night.